June 11, 2013

Where are they now? An interview with Hydragenic

402645_211953572231411_1548112870_nAre you living in the same place as in 2004/05?

Still London. Back then I lived in its south-eastern suburbs, whereas currently I’m north of the river and more central. I’m enjoying this immersive experience of the capital, after 19 years of commuter and pseudo-commuter life.

Would we recognise you if we passed you in the street?

Crows have wandered across my face, adding footnotes to my story. Some days I barely recognise my own reflection, with a greater number of “Who’s that old bloke?” moments each year. In general: yes, probably.

What do you think is the best/most important new technology/online thingy to have appeared in recent years?

This is probably stretching the definition of “recent” beyond the limits implied by the question, but I feel I should avoid citing smartphones once more, purely for the sake of variety. So, a broader view: the internet.

We’ve witnessed and participated in a phase of history arguably as fascinating, disruptive and significant as the Industrial Revolution. May you live in interesting times, as the purported (and quite probably apocryphal) Chinese curse goes.

We all had a blog back then. Do you still have one, or are you mainly present somewhere else?

Hydragenic petered out towards the end of 2010. I rebooted it earlier this year, after finding myself writing an increasing number of wordy Facebook status updates that didn’t seem to ‘sit’ well in that environment.

I’ve been elsewhere too, both then and now, alongside the inevitable social media presences. A mixture of copy-writing, ghost-writing, anonymous, pseudonymous and credited involvement in a variety of creative and work-related projects.

What achievement of the last 7 years would you most like to celebrate here?

Leaving my full-time job of sixteen years in 2006. It had become a comfort zone that was no longer comfortable. I’ve since done things that I neither could nor would have done previously, both professionally and personally.

This itchy period is best described as my mid-life crisis. I’m fine with that. Forget the English-speaking world’s typically alarmist, risk-averse implementation of the word; its Greek roots can simply mean “decision” or “turning point”.

Vaughan wanted us to ask you a few questions, and I hope he won’t mind that I have edited them slightly for the sake of brevity…

What kind of blogger (if any) did you think you were back then? And what about now?

I started blogging in earnest in 2002, with no particular aim other than addressing an insistently emerging need for some form of self-expression to counter-balance an increasing sense of personal unease and global unrest.

I’ve written about whatever I’ve felt it necessary to explore at the time. It has often been an exercise in self-discovery, frequently highlighting that the “Who am I?” question tends to breed only further questions.

Why do you keep disappearing? Is it do with your how your life is at that moment, or just because you haven’t found entirely the right medium for sharing your thoughts online?

I experiment with different outlets. There’s rarely a plan; stuff will out, wherever and whenever it needs to. There are also periods when I feel I’ve placed enough narratives and images into the world for a while.

From my perspective, of course, it’s not disappearance; simply an ongoing pattern of occasional shifts of focus towards different areas. It’s like an endlessly morphing Euler diagram. Trying to stage-manage it would be exhausting, so I don’t.

Has the easy availability of just about any music lessened its value for you?

Music seems as valuable as it ever was. Where forms of art are concerned, nothing moves me more, except occasionally the written word. However, I definitely listen to less music these days, since it’s always “on tap”.

I take it for granted, like the easy availability of clean, piped drinking water. That doesn’t mean I value it less. Like many others, I appear to grow carefree and careless; however, the fact remains that I still care.

Is there just too much music out there now?

I’ve floated this heretical thought myself, several times in recent years; its opposite too. The mixed blessing of increasing choice often encourages you to examine and to re-define how you relate to previously ‘scarcer’ phenomena.

I don’t think quantity is specifically a problem. The issue is more about how you address overload and fragmentation, particularly online. In my case, this has helped me to consider more precisely what I ‘want’ from music.

How many bands/artists would you say you get really excited about in an average year?

A decreasing number, since I reined in the insatiable yet largely disposable nature of my music habits. (Disclaimer: I wouldn’t recognise an “average year” if it slapped me across the face with a slab of 220 gram vinyl.)

Single digits, recently. Generally friends’ projects, rather than new music purely for novelty’s sake. It’s a different starting point – and level of engagement – when it springs from the basis of an existing relationship.

Who would you like us to interview next, and what shall we ask them?

@goldfinsch, possibly formerly better known to many ‘Class Of 2004/05’ UK bloggers as qB of frizzyLogic. I’d like to hear her thoughts on: 1) pseudonyms and alter egos; 2) words versus pictures; 3) whither personal blogging?

Two of these are not direct questions; all three are admittedly very open-ended. They’re areas that we have debated regularly over the years. I’d be fascinated to see her sum up her current feelings in a mid-2013 snapshot.

Karen
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June 10, 2013

Uborka’s Got Style: Developing a positive body image

Pixeldiva asks, “how does one develop a positive body image, when one knows that ones actual body isn’t as healthy as it should be, but one does not have the time or energy to make the necessary steps to get it to a reasonable state of health (not perfection) any time soon?”

A very good question indeed. Wish I had the time to do this one justice! First things first, time and energy isn’t as much of an issue as you may at first think because positive body image is all in the mind. You have to get to that point where you love what you have. It’s not necessary to look in the mirror every day and think about how much you like what you see, but you should be able to pull a fierce facial expression and just say “fuck it” rather than spend your life stressing about your body. OK, so that involves emotional energy, but there are a few simple ways to get started.

Surround yourself with positivity – Look for good role models. Follow fantastic people like Natasha Devon, Bethany Rutter and Georgina Horne on Twitter. Find some body positive blogs and be inspired by the confidence of the writers and those who comment. Unfollow people who tweet body snark or constant diet/weight updates… or call them on it.

Ignore size labels – Well, use them as a guideline for finding something that fits, but don’t get hung up on the number itself. Cut the labels out, if it helps. View your clothes as something that should fit comfortably and make you feel fabulous. Check out my blog post from 2011 on why size is just a number. Organise a clothes swap to get rid of stuff that no longer fits.

Find your look and rock it – Is bright pink lipstick your thing? Do you adore polkadots? Do you have an obsession with neon Nikes? Whatever you love to wear, get some more of it. Make it ‘your thing’ and it’ll be able to cheer you up on a regular basis rather than once in a while. Life’s too short to save the fun clothes for best.

Exchange compliments with friends – If you need a bit of a boost, dish out compliments and you’ll, inevitably get some back. Just giving them can make you feel fantastic, but creating a little mutual appreciation society can sometimes be just what you need on a bad day. Just let me know if I can help with that one.

Lori Smith
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  • [...] was asked recently about how to develop a positive body image. The biggest problem w... - Feminism Friday: Your body, your happiness - Rarely Wears Lipstick
  • Meant to post this last week, but body positive men to "inspire" me? - Gordon
  • Yes, that's a brilliant (and very important) addition. Thanks :-) - Lori Smith
  • "because positive body image is all in the mind. You have to get to that point where you l... - Blue Witch
  • Sevitz! Unfollow people who tweet body snark or constant diet/weight updates… or call th... - Karen

Uborka’s Got Style: Question #4 for K

Lyle asked:

So….. What *is* the proper terminology to use when addressing…

a) a doctor
b) a politician and
c) a peer of the realm?

Now, that’s an easy, one-size-fits-all question.

“Just shut the fuck up and listen to me for a change, you arrogant twunt.”

K
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Uborka’s Got Style: Find me a blue mascara!

Blue Witch asks “is there anywhere that still sells BW Blue mascara? Boots No.7 seem to have discontinued the last one I could find. I hate shopping and make-up counters scare me these days (I struggle with most artificial scents, and overly made up young girls trying to sell me things I would never use). Lots of brands have produced it over the years, and I’ve never used anything other than blue. I did buy some ‘barely black’ a while ago, but decided i’d rather wear no mascara than that. Teal blue just won’t do, and brown just isn’t right!”

Fun fact: my first ever mascara was blue. Back in my early teens, when I knew nothing about make up and never wore the stuff, my mum’s best friend bought me a Mary Quant make up box for Christmas. One of the things inside was a blue mascara and I was instantly lured in by its charms. Sadly though, it’s not been a terribly easy thing to get hold of since then, but you’re in luck now as it was a mini-trend for AW12, so there are a few for sale still.

Superdrug stock a couple of bargainous options, which gives the added benefit that they’re not being sold in a place that stinks of perfume by over eager shop assistants. VML Luminizer Mascara Blue Eyes and the insanely cheap (although really good, if their eyeshadow is anything to go by!) MUA have an electric blue mascara. Boots sell another bargain blue – Collection 2000’s Extreme Coloured Length Mascara. They also sell Benefit’s BADgal blue, but you’ll have to brave a make up counter to get it… or just buy some online without testing it first. The reviews of it look pretty good. To be honest, I thought I’d find more. Maybelline did one, but it appears to be only available to order in bulk from Amazon now! Mind you… perhaps it’s worth stocking up.

Lori Smith
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  • Me too, Karen! Though I remember swearing blind I didn't have any on (honestly mum my eyel... - Lisa
  • My first mascara was also blue. I wasn't allowed to use it. - Karen
  • Lori, you have extended my mascara-wearing days, thank you so much! I shall have to brave... - Blue Witch
June 9, 2013

Uborka’s Got Style: Question #5 for Mike TD

Blue Witch asked:

If you could pick any consecutive ten year period of music to live through again now (but with everything you now have, including all the knowledge and experience), which decade would be top for pops?

It’s an intriguing fantasy. Although I would retain a memory of music which went later, I’d be placed back in the musical past, only able to hear new releases after their release dates, and only able to listen to music radio, read the music press, follow the charts and attend gigs from the designated period as it progressed. But I’d have the likes of iTunes, Spotify, YouTube and digital streaming radio to help me along the way.

There’s an arguable inconsistency to wrestle with, too: although free to choose “any consecutive ten year period”, I have to conclude by picking a top decade. Can a decade consist of any consecutive ten years, or does it have to start with a year ending in zero? Hmm, perhaps I should go with the former.

Firstly, let’s block off the Worst Years For Music Ever: 1985 and 1999. I also have scant interest in reliving anything before 1965.

In terms of the singles charts, my golden age runs from 1978 to 1984, which means that I’m well served by the current re-runs of Top of the Pops on BBC4. It’s tempting to land my time machine there, but there’s a downside: I’d be signing up for repetition of a period with which I’m already deeply familiar, leaving scant opportunities for making new discoveries and accruing new knowledge.

In terms of mining poorly executed territory, the late Eighties and early Nineties could offer fertile ground. Between the rise of The Smiths and the rise of Nirvana, I had little truck with guitar bands, and with alternative/underground non-dance music in general. Armed with the Melody Makers of the day, I could delve deep. I’d also love to re-experience rave and techno from 1990 to 1994, armed with the empathy which eluded me at the time.

The Seventies offer my most expansive musical comfort zone, and it’s a comfort zone which is still expanding. Plenty to immerse myself in there, especially gig-wise; I’d be at The 100 Club for the Sex Pistols, the Hammersmith Odeon for Bowie, the Rainbow for Kevin Ayers, the Lyceum for Bob Marley, CBGBs for Patti Smith and The Ramones. And I’d be reading the music press cover-to-cover, too.

Or what about reliving the Noughties: a time where I engaged more thoroughly with a more diverse range of music than ever before? I’d have a road map stored in my memory, which would steer me away from some of the wrong turnings and blind alleys, and nudge me further down more promising routes.

Ah, sod it, I’m opting for the comfort zone, and a nice, neat, decade-shaped decade. Drop me off in 1970, pick me up again in December 1979, and I’ll be a happy man.

Mike
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  • Excellent riposte sir, excellent riposte. Strangley Mr BW seems to be saying similar th... - Blue Witch
  • If that's what you want to hear, BW, then it's exactly what I said! :-) - mike
  • "Can a decade consist of any consecutive ten years, or does it have to start with a year e... - Blue Witch

Uborka’s Got Style: Can porn be ethical?

Mike asked, “Is it ethically possible to enjoy pornography, without feeling guilt at the attendant exploitation? Asking for a friend, of course…”

The short answer is yes. But, of course, it depends on the type of porn you are enjoying. It might surprise you to know that I’m not an expert in pornography – nowhere near, in fact. I have watched very little porn compared to many people I know and, to be perfectly honest, wouldn’t really know where to start looking for it online without some friendly guidance. However, there are always expert voices to be found on any subject, so I shall point you in the direction of a couple of interesting articles I found whilst researching my reply to you. Kitty Stryker wrote an interesting piece for The Huffington Post last year on what constitutes ethically produced pornography.

When I’ve personally been called upon to describe what the phrase “ethical porn” means to me, I’ve talked about pornography produced with the pleasure of the participants in mind; porn that does not depend on male-gaze shooting techniques; porn that shows diversity in body types, gender identities, and sexual orientation; porn that allows the performers to have a say in how the action progresses and what happens. How is the porn shot? Are the performers seen as people needing to be aroused, or just as permanently ready genitals? Is safer sex used? Do you see barriers put into place on camera, or negotiation/consent discussed? Is there use of sex toys that are high-quality, body-safe, and sterile? Does the sexual interaction end with the “money shot,” or do they keep going or snuggle or kiss?

Of course, that’s from a feminist woman’s perspective and so relates to porn which involves women in some way but, even so, it would seem that there are many producers out there trying to do something a bit different these days. Some companies producing porn claim to do so in an ethical way. For example, Crash Pad Series declares itself to be home to authentic queer sexuality. San Francisco powerhouse Kink.com says it respects its performers’ boundaries and safety, so Ezra Crane decided to find out firsthand by signing up to be an extra in one of their shoots, and then writing about it for XO Jane. He explains:

I think the pre and post-show interviews Princess Donna runs with the models are absolutely important to humanizing Public Disgrace. They establish context for the shoot and show the models as real people and not sex objects (even if they get used as such in the movies). “You are about to watch someone’s sex fantasy acted out in a safe and controlled setting,” they tell the viewer.

It’s not all slick big budget productions in the world of ethical porn though. In fact it’s very rarely as mainstream looking (style, not content!) as Kink.com’s videos. There is real world sex to be found too. In 2009, Cindy Gallop spoke at TED about how hardcore pornography had affected the way young men viewed sex. Since then, she has launched an adult social enterprise called MakeLoveNotPorn.tv where real people – of any age, gender, or sexual orientation – can submit their own videos and receive some of the profits the site makes from ‘rentals’. That’s probably about as ethical as you can get, right? She gave a fascinating and inspirational talk about it at this year’s Eroticon conference for sex bloggers and erotica writers, which I attended, and I really do admire her for trying to do something so wonderfully different. When I get some time, I might check out some of the videos. For research purposes, of course.

Lori Smith
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  • I'd like to think that describes me, too, though my chosen charity is different ;) I spot... - Karen
  • "happy, sorted and non-exploitative, yet utterly filthy minded at the same time" - sounds ... - Lori Smith
  • Very interesting, and thanks for doing the research. I think I once met some "ethical" por... - mike
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  • You keep commenting away to yourself, Pete. Pretend people are talking about your post. - Karen
  • See, some might say that a photo of a large glass of squash does not constitute interestin... - Pete
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June 7, 2013

The wheels on the train go round and round…

We’re on a bit of a convoluted train today, which appears to be stopping at Birmingham, Crewe and Florida. Never knew the Virgin Pendelino went that far.

So, as it’s a rather sunny day here, just outside Glasgow, let’s take over the first class carriage and cause merry hell there. And please excuse me finishing off the winegums while I serve. Your at seat service today will include club sandwiches and triangles of whole meal toast, crusts cut off, and covered with marmite. Additionally, large platters of sea food are available from our well stocked on board buffet, for those (ktd and jonny) who complained about missing out yesterday.

Sat in seats 1 and 2 we have Mike and Pete on the Wadworth 6x. I’m guessing the 6x means they get six bottles each? They might get a bit loud, feel free to kick them off at Preston if they do.

Next row along Stuart and Krissa are drinking hurricanes, and trying to avoid the small rain cloud that seems to be defying science to appear over their heads, the weather is not being kind to them.

Lyle is knocking back rainbow shots. I think I saw some yellow tequila in there, blue curaçao, cassis and creme de menthe. It’s probably best if we leave him sat on his own.

And having a nice chat round a table, Karen’s got a bottle of Merlot, and a straw, Ann has an elderflower spritzer, but we’ve popped an extra bottle of vodka there as well, just in case. Asta’s got a sea breeze, sorry about the broken window, feel free to move if it gets too windy, and Graybo is working on a whisky and Irn Bru, which will probably make him start glowing in the dark soon: handy if the train stops on any tunnels.

Clair
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  • I'd be less worried about the "slow reveal" than about the creeping green horror that has ... - Lyle
  • Please remember to lock the doors securely when using the toilets. We're on a virgin train... - Clair
  • If I were in there, no-one else would be queueing to use it, believe me. - Lyle
  • No, I'm in the toilet because I saw the ticket inspector coming and I don't have a ticket. - Pete
  • Thank you. Most kind. Although I am concerned that this train seems to have only one toile... - graybo